No longer "stuck808". Now my name is Bond. "MrBond

[MrBond]

Thanks for the 2x4 Sandi.

That's the problem with where I'm at that I'm trying to deal with in T. There are times I detach too much and have that "I don't give a damn" attitude. I'm learning how to get that under control.

Actually it's funny. I was just thinking about you and that I needed your insight about this past weekend.

On Sunday, my Ds and I picked up my W and we first went to Mass together. In the whole church full of happy families, my W didn't even crack a smile. She seemed (for lack of a better term) ashamed or guilty. She didn't even go up for Communion.

Afterwards, we went to lunch together and I felt that old wall coming back up again. Big change from the progress in the past weeks, but to be expected from what I've heard. She also had a hard time looking at me in the eyes when we were talking and was much more withdrawn.

I got this feeling of immense guilt coming from her. It was almost as if she felt...helpless. As if she created this train wreck and could see no other option but to see it to the crash because she "felt" like it. I don't know.

Were you ever in that position? When you had your doubts of coming back?

I was surprised that she called my mom to wish her Happy Mothers Day and even called her "Mom".