Sometimes hope is not a tangible item. It would be nice if it was but it is not always the case. I am not even asking you to have hope about ANYTHING specific. What I am asking you is to make hope part of your thought pattern.
Not hope about your W, the children or anything else. Just find a way each day to realize hope does exist and will be part of your life.
Do you accept the fact you have medical and emotional problems that will not be solved overnight? Do you accept the fact you will need "outsiders" to assist you as you walk this road? Do you accept (or will you consider accepting) your body is diseased and working with your disease instead of against it might feel new/different/scary but might help create hope?
What color is your disease? Mine is purple. Don't ask me why it's purple, it's just how I think lupus looks inside of a body. Sometimes I feel disgusted that I have a disease inside of me. Sometimes I feel scared I have a disease inside of me. Sometimes I feel damaged I have a disease inside of me. All of those feelings are valid. Valid or not it doesn't change "the purple". What are my options? Work with it instead of against it.
What can you do RIGHT NOW to work with your disease instead of against it? What color is your disease?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm let me go smoke and think about this.
waw 36 (spiritual covenant and common law marriage)me 32 together 13 mos. Bomb dropped march 2nd 2010
children SD (8) S (10) S (3) need help from anyone with my sitch
