I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

Okay, well then we will have to make a pact. I would like you to take the idea and talk of suicide off the table for now. If your mind starts to veer back to suicide then you must be honest about it.

So, no suicide talk or thought on your end (for now).

What would you like me to commit to in the pact?

Also, will you trust me a little? Remember, I have been working on this for two years and I have had personal success that has NOTHING to do with David.

This is what I follow... a four pronged approach. One prong is creating a healthy support system. I would like to be in your support system. I bet lots of other people on this forum will also want to be included.

Prong 2 is C'ing. Now, maybe we can work on that and find a new resource for you instead of waiting for appts or state approval.

Prong 3 is medication if necessary. See prong 2.

Prong 4 is hope. You have to find some hope each day that you will have the strength to endure each day and somehow, someway come out a bit better than when you started.

Let me know what you think.

ok!!! i do not know what to put in pact. i just need friends. i don't like to worry my family about this and it stresses them out.

I will try not to talk suicide anymore. My I.C. is supposed to be back tommorrow. she is really good with people who have disabilities such as partial sight t hat's why i like her too. she can relate to me.

i know i need meds. i'm a nervous wereck.

4 is hard. i'm afraid to hope. everytime i hope about my life whether it's doctors, surgery, job, the kids, waw, it all ends up bad.

so how do i hope for that?