Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

Flowmom and Abbey, doing marginally better today. Still having a rough time of things but at least I'm not spending the better part of my day in tears. I am on two different meds, am maxed out on dosage for the primary and if I go higher on the secondary I have nasty side effects to deal with. So sadly, meds are doing the best they can. I am seeing my IC again on Wednesday, we'll see how the session goes.

I feel like this whole mess is going to break me. Logically I know that it won't, logically I know that I need to focus on myself and DS right now. But emotionally I'm having trouble getting there. I pray daily for God to guide me and give me His strength.