I have started being cold most of the time and I am really happy about it. He has sent me 3 e-mails today and in all of them I see a tired lost person. I used to cry a lot before and question why someone can be so mean and unjust towards someone else, besides, how could he be so towards someone he was suppsed to love the most...naive I know.
In one of them he informs me my stuff is back in the house, and I think that is the price he paid for being so cynic and small. He keeps on accusing me of more, he has now opened again the old books, but this time, he won't get through me because I am now cold and he cannot hurt me.
All what worries me is how possibly can we end up in being so small and against each other. We had a great love... a friend of mine and the social worked told me I'm paying his mother's "bills"...his mother abandoned him when he was 15 for another man. She keeps on appearing on his life only when broken peaces are left to be collected. He has written today a mail where in 5 paragraphs 3 are about my friend who hosted us. What a shame to CC her to this message. She is now very upset and I find it right.
I didn't answer much to him. One sentence does the think when we have been repeating and repeating and repeating over and over the same things and he won't understand. No use to spend more time on explaining things he should know.
My problems are other right now...and I am so unprepared to all this...where are we going to end it all and how.
