Completely Blindsided

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Hey Lees,

I hope that I am doing well. I struggle daily, but I keep trying to put one foot in front of the other.

Tuesdays are the worst. I barely slept last night, despite being exhausted. My mind wouldn't stop racing... I think mainly because I know she calls tomorrow. It's the time when I hit lowest, waiting for her to ring me.

Yeah, I know a month is only a short time, but I also know that the pain doesn't stop. And in 3 months, 12 months, or even later, I can't imagine that pain dulling... just finding new ways to cope I guess.

I think tonight I'm going to chose the dance option over the tv show option. A quiet night in tonight will just keep me bouncing off the walls, and it's the last thing I need.

I need healthy distractions.... whatever they might be.

Thanks for the support Lees... I flit between knowing I can do it and not wanting to... so hopefully these posts will keep me going.

Cheers