James, I understand all of this is very hurtful. I understand you were there for your W in her time of need and now she is not there for you. Right now there is nothing you can do about that. You cannot make your W be there.
I wonder all the time how my H could have treated me so badly while I was so ill. And the bottom line is I will never know. I no longer expose myself to his BS excuses or off the wall justifications. It is him, not me.
Each time I ask you if you would like to work some steps with me you go back to your W. Yes, I am sure you would much rather your W be saying this to you but the bottom line is right now she is not.
I don't disagree you need professional help sooner than later. I am not a professional but I do have an incurable disease that is no longer in remission along with the panic disorder I work at each day. Maybe we can help each other. What do you say?
