I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

James,

Think about it this way.

Do you realize how much hurt and despair you'd put your kids through if you did something such as ending your life?

I have felt absolutely hopeless and the pain was so unbearable at times that I wanted SOO bad to just make it go away. I had no patience at all! I wanted it nipped right away.

The one thing that got me through was thinking about my children. Thinking about how that would affect them. I may have my problems and what not, but I want to set an example for my kids. I don't want them to think that the way I (would have) handled this situation is the way THEY should.

Always remember that suicide is a permanant solution to a temporary problem.

We are here for you. hugs!

Yea I think about them but maybe they are better off?

s10 was acting up in school and told his mother he did not have a father

s10 talks more to WAW than me because what bioMOM has told hiim and the fact he's mad at me because WAW (who he really loves) is not around.

s3 may be better of

sd8 hates me. she finally can say my name after I had to take her to cps after a year. I'll probably never see her again.

then WAW acts like she doesn't give a fucc? She just hugged me Thursday and told me she knows I'm not right that I'm trying and that she knows I'll get better. I cried and she hugged me. Then Friday we argued saturday we argued and i haven't heard from her since.