Do you think a person can be going through a MLC from the time they are an adult? Legal Adult. It is so difficult for me to determine if this is really what this is due to the fact that I believe he has always been like this. Regretting the past and what would his life be like only if. I really cannot think of a time that this was not the case. Blame for what his life is like has always been placed somewhere else not even necessarily on me. Perhaps depression mixed with MLC. It is sad really. Comments like if I would have only had this when I was 16 my life would be different. What a torture to live this way. I have now been through this twice basically. My 1st H is dead as a result of dealing with his problems and it truly is amazing that I basically wind up in the same situation again. Different but yet the same.
I am tired of being scared. It is not a good feeling. I am a strong capapble women, and yet when you choose to love you put yourself at risk, you have to or else never feel that love. I am tired of toxic relationships I vow I will not live this way any longer. That is truly what the DBing books are about. I will come out on the other side of this a better and stonger person no matter what. I will have a better friendship and a maybe a stronger marriage. I will love with no boundaries and as close to the heart of GOD as I possibly can.
