I'm with DLS on that one. I didn't have the health issues, but I did have Police issues not really similar, but in some ways just as troublesome. My Ex was a Barber . . . in the Barber shop most of the Local Police used because they gave free haircuts. She was on a first name basis with pretty much ALL the police in our town, and she abused that greatly to my expense. I finally got a handle on that by complaining directly to the Sheriff, who at first thought I was full of crap . . .but a few hours later called me back and apologized and told me it would stop . . .which it mostly did.
Anyway, not sure why a few people on here seem to think beating people down and insulting the crap out of them is a real good way of "helping' you, but, having been in your shoes, at least somewhat, I know from personal experience that when you really are getting "kicked in the head by life" so-to-speak, we tend to look at every little annoying thing in life as just another kick in the head. Which isn't a good mindset.
Sounds like you do need to change your environment, like others suggested, that did help me. It didn't 'make everything better' not by a longshot actually . . .but it was better. And when you're as down as you seem to be, every little bit helps. Hang in there, God loves ya, we're his children, but just like a good parent, some things He just has to let "us kids" come to grips with pretty much on our own. Make no mistake, God can . . .and possibly has, already, even if unbeknownst to you, intervened a bit on your behalf, but largely, we have to handle the details ourselves. Bad things do happen to good people unfortunately. Just keep plugging away man, and do what you can to help yourself. Change a few things. Join a Gym or something, take a college or community center class on wood turning or something, join a club of some sort. But hang in there.
Bummedout,
Your wife was a barber in a male barbershop frequented by police? They harrassed you based on what she was saying. At some point isn't it illegal?
