I do want to comment on "mediocrity" so to speak. First of all, why do you think you are disappointing yourself? Because you want to try again?
Second, this relationship or whatever it is right now is between you and Gabe, not you and Gabe and your family and friends. In this situation, only you need to be comfortable with your decision.
That being said, if YOU are not comfortable with your decision, then why aren't you? And, what can you do to change it?
(((BIG HUG)))
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
