tired of trying...

[beingreal]

We went to MC last year, he was never really involved. He tried, he read A book, but he managed to just take from it what he wanted. We didn't get very far.

I haven't spoken with him about it this time. I don't think he would even entertain the notion. I've also asked him to get some lab work done & ask his doctor about antidepressants, but he is convinced that the problem is all mine. I need to be on pills to deal with him because he has done nothing wrong.



I don't know what I am, the WAS or the LBS. I told him to go if he was that unhappy, he left & I didn't stop him like he apparently thought I would. I think he left (although it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things), he thinks I kicked him out. The ONLY way it matters is when trying to figure out which path to take. Is he going to react like a WAS or a LBS?

Or do I just say & do nothing and leave him on his own for awhile.

I know when H & his XW first split he'd become physically involved with some girl in town (before he met me). I don't know if he'd seek "companionship" right now (read "sex"), and I'm not sure I would even care. I think acting like a man around someone else would actually make him feel like a man.

I'm seriously trying to imagine hearing that he's found a GF right this second, and I really don't feel anything.

I'm tired of acting like the H, I'm not! I'm a female who'd like to feel like the man she chose to marry was man enough to take care of her. I just feel like I've got four little boys.

To my H: Nut up, already!!!

I hate being so freaking confused.