I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

James,

Calm down. I think it's safe to say we have all felt a little like dying during all of this. Part of us does die. We have to let the part that is still inside flourish and grow. No easy task and it takes time.

Get the help that you need. Vent here all you want. People who don't even know you are worried about you. This is a life changing event. You have to make the decision to deal with it no matter how hard it seems to be at any given time. Go off somewhere and cry, scream, and get it all out. But, be done with it for a while. The feelings creep back, it's normal. What is not normal or healthy, is not dealing with them. We all hurt. I don't think you are hurting any more than me, or CG, or anyone else that has found themselves in this shi77y situation.

I don't know what else to say. GET SOME HELP. Please!

it's not just WAW. it's losing my kids. my mind, my health, friends have avoided me until they need something from me now. Family doesn't get it.

Heck I don't get it.

I AM TRYING TO GET HELP. BUT EVERYWHERE I TURN I'M TOLD TO HANG IN THERE OR THEY JUST TAKE THEIR SWEET TIME AND I'M GETTING WORSE.

MY TEMPER IS OUT OF CONTROL. MY EMOTIONS AND HIGHS AND LOWS ARE BAD. REAL BAD. I DO THINGS AND DON'T REMEMBER OR DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHY I DID. I HAVE NO ANSWER FOR IT.

I DO WHAT THEY ASK ME TO DO. THEN I'M TOLD I GOTTA DO MORE OF THIS OR THAT BEFORE THIS CAN HAPPEN. ALL WHILE I'M FALLING APART.