WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

Having a rough day today.. Emotions all over the place mixed with PMS (sorry gents!)...

My mind keeps going back to when H was loving and supportive of me.. and then flashes forward to this stranger now.. I'm trying to keep my mind on the things I need to right now.. but I haven't been too sucessful today..

God this all hurts so much..

I don't know if H will step up.. Part of me hopes he will, the other highly doubts it...

Still trying to figure a way out of this mess without his having to.. but I think the Universe is doing one of its tests of both H and I.. and I'm hoping desperately that we'll both pass in our own way..

I don't even know what to ask for anymore.. I've got such turmoil going on in my head and heart... Anger and resentment thrown in just to make things seem impossible..

Really having trouble handling what I've been dealt right now..

I can't see how H and I can ever come back from this all...