James, would you consider calling a suicide hot line?
Do you think that somewhere, somehow there is *something* that can be done? Not for the long term, not for the short term but for today?
I understand when you are all jumbled up inside due to emotional and physical distress it is hard to remember everything. It seems though that you tell us one thing then we try and work off the information you have provided then you get angry about the responses and change the information.
What would be helpful to you right now?
probably because my memory is very shytty. It's all over the report. My iq has dropped by 20 points. I dont explain things the right way anymore. Everything comes out all jumbled up and wrong.
When I talk to people I have to think hard about words otherwise sometimes I stare off into space and zone out. I get upset quickly. I get really mad for no reason osmetimes.
and i probably lost WAW forever because of this behaviour that I don't understand. Thing is I saw her go through this and I was there. But me? I'm avoided. but I scare myself too. So go figure.
EVERYBODY READS THE DAMN REPORTS AND DOESN'T GET IT? THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND? OR MAYBE I'M JUST TOO MUCH OF A LIABILITY AND BURDEN FOR THEM TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH.
ONE THING I DO REMEMBER IS HOW WAW BEGGED ME TO HANG IN THERE WITH HER. TO NOT GIVE UP ON HER WHEN SHE WAS PRETTY MUCH AT THE POINT I'M AT. EVEN ALOT WORSE. NOW YOU JUST ABANDON ME?
waw 36 (spiritual covenant and common law marriage)me 32 together 13 mos. Bomb dropped march 2nd 2010
children SD (8) S (10) S (3) need help from anyone with my sitch
