James, would you consider calling a suicide hot line?
Do you think that somewhere, somehow there is *something* that can be done? Not for the long term, not for the short term but for today?
I understand when you are all jumbled up inside due to emotional and physical distress it is hard to remember everything. It seems though that you tell us one thing then we try and work off the information you have provided then you get angry about the responses and change the information.
