I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

James~

If nothing positive is going on what do I celebrate

You celebrate another day to get it right...He gave you breath this morning and allowed you to wake up...Stop trying to take the cowards way out and get on your knees and thank Him for today...

whoo hoo yay I woke up today knowing that I'm not going to get shyt accomplished?

I am sorry but your attitude sucks....Each and every single one of us could have a pity party each and every single day - You are choosing to only look at the bad...Try looking at just the positives - No matter how small they are.


My Pastor once told me maybe 2 months after all this started -

"Don't focus on what you no longer have because then you lose focus on what is still in front of you."

I think that fits here.

(((Hugs)))

yEP AND I USED TO THINK THE SAME. E VERYDAY IS A NEW DAY TO HIT THE RESET BUTTON. BUT ALL I HEAR IS EVERY MISTAKE I'VE MADE IN MY LIFE. FROM MY PARENTS. FROM WAW.

NOTHING I'VE TRIED TO DO GOOD MATTERS. THEY KNOW I'M NOT FREAKING NORMAL

THEY'VE SEEN THE REPORTS FROM THE DOCTORS AND COUNSELORS. SO WHY THE HECK DO THEY EXPECT ME TO BE THAT WAY?

BECAUSE FOR YEARS I'VE BEEN ABLE TO DEAL WITH IT? I CAN'T ANYMORE. I DON'T KNOW HOW.

YOU'RE TOO SMART FOR THIS. YOU USED TO BE SO STRONG AND HAPPY. YOU ARE A WARRIOR OVERCOMING EVERYTHING. YOU'LL BE FINE. BECAUSE YOU'VE BEEN THERE FOR EVERYONE.

DAMNIT WHAT THE HELL ABOUT ME? I'M FIGHTING ALL BY MYSELF AND DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH THIS ANYMORE

I'D RATHER BE DEAD THAN TO DEAL WITH THIS. I'M SERIOUS. I WISH I WOULDA JUST DIED IN THE HOSPITAL 2 WEEKS AGO OR YESTERDAY AND JUST BEEN PUT OUT OF MY MISERY LIKE A HORSE WITH A BROKEN LEG