I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

James you're right,
I agree with you 100%,
life is too hard,
I don't know how you're going to handle it,
so what will you do now?

probably attempt another overdose like I did yesterday? who knows. It'd have to be something different though that was extremely ineffective. Just got sick as a dog.

Like I said it's easy FOR 90 percent of this board to say "suck it up" but they are not in my position.

I cannot drive.
I have disabilities and emotional issues that I cannot resolve even though I've tried to work push forward and got handed a pink slip due to having too many unresolved disabilities.

I don't see my kids. I just sit here setting goals and nothing gets done.

Let me give you my vision

left eye

20/200 without hard contact I just got in april
20/50 with contact in eye

right eye

20/lp (light precision)
20/? who knows after eye surgery

Diabetes that is so screwed up that I almost died in the hospital TRYING TO GO TO HOSPITAL TO GET INSURANCE after going to a freaking eye appointment and being unconscious for over 90 mins.

Possible epilepsy who freaking knows

Disability benefits denied two times with social security stating this

1st denial: I have perfect vision in both my eyes even though I had 50 million supporting documents from 3 different doctors stating different.

2nd denial: We know you may need special care but we think you can be retrained to do something else. Welp I tried that. lasted all of a week before I got fired

So yep I should be jumping for joy and doing summersaults about sitting here setting goals and getting nothing done.

Getting a job only to have it yanked away. Getting diagnosed with illnesses only to have them go untreated?

Having all these illogical thoughts because said treatments are not occuring yet everyone online and offline excepts me to be his

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