Well that convo did not go well. But at least I didn't expect it would. I told her several times that we shouldn't be discussing R, as she was upset. She basically said that she doesnt need any more time. D is what she wants. She sees no reason in waiting any longer. She is done. I'm sure some of it was said out of hurt, but I really get the impression that this is all over. It's just a self-fulfilling prophecy at this point. She thinks I am out talking trash about her and trying to make her out to be the bad guy. When I try to tell her that I am not, and I can't control what my friends say, she doesn't believe me. I told her that I didn't blame her due to my lying, I validated as much as I could. I told her I wanted more time so I could at least accept her decision to D.
She finally agreed to give me until 6/18. But she says nothing will change her mind. And that on that day we will be signing and filing. I have barely spoken with her lately. We did talk a bit the nxt day, she said that we are mature enough to talk now, when needed. I have sent her a funny light txt here and there. Sometimes she replies, but is always brief, rarely has anything to add, but I haven't been pushing.
Today though, I got a reply from a txt I sent on Sunday. I replied and one thing I said was that she looked beautiful when I saw her on Saturday (picked up my dog). Her reply was "haha thanks". But then I messed up at one point and said I felt awkward texting her sometimes because she didn't reply. She got annoyed and said she couldn't always reply. I stopped texting at that point, just backed off. Hopefully it's a good thing that she still gets upset, sounds pathetic for me to say that, but there is at least some emotion there I guess. Mainly, it just seems like she will only see the bad in what I do. We were supposed to start hanging out nxt weekend (loosly what we agreed on) but I haven't asked her, especially not now. Any thoughts out there?
