Just found out she already filed

[ImprovedRomeo]

So I found this email from STBXW from 2007 just before we reconciled (after a year and a half apart):

"Thanks for coming over tonight and helping DD carve the pumpkin and also for the flowers. I really appreciated it. She had a really good time I think, even though you mentioned she had been crabby today.

I guess some of my dreams are big ones, some are just small ones. One is to get a house together again someday. I think it would also be cool if we both got lasix for our eyes (not at the same time though! you can go first, hahaha.) I would love to see you get a car that you're really happy with instead of driving that old car. I think seeing you happy would be pretty nice. I would love to go back to your home someday. I've actually always wanted to go. Even if we stayed apart I would have loved to go back with you and DD. I do think it would be cool to take roadtrips around the US, or even fly places that are farther away. I would love to take vacations with you and DD too. Those are just some of the things that come off the top of my head. Oh yeah, I would also love to go to Law School (the Donald Bren School of Law, seriously! ahahahaha) and be admitted to their first class which is fall of 2009, if they get it together by then. I would love to eventually be back together cause it really does make me sad when DD says, "I want daddy." I want to tell her that I hope we'll be back together soon and have one house again.

I'm really proud of the changes that you've made in yourself. I want to change too and make you equally proud of me. I also need to be coached, prodded and helped along if you see I'm slipping or need help, advice, etc. I would like to do the same for you too.

I am really sorry for the pain and hurt that I've caused you. I want you to be able to forgive me someday and let me know what else I can do to help you with that.

love, STBXW"

How did we get here? It seems like there was so much potential, we could be so much more if we stayed true to our intentions.

We did buy a house together
We bought a travel trailer and a truck to take road trips
We even flew abroad to vacations

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