MINDFULL - It won't be long now... Parallel Paths

[mindfull]

Thank you, everyone. Actually, I'm doing fine.

I have informed some people in my inner circle IRL re: H's behavior yesterday, and the filing for a D. I feel better for doing so.

One of the people I informed was my boss, who is awesome. He offered to a)send me to Europe for a week, b)fly my boys w/me to CA, if I end up going this week now, c) relocate us all to CA, d) restructure my pay to make it beneficial to my new situation.

Another one of the people is one of my BFF's. We walked for an hour this am, and she's ready to roll w/support. Immediately. Already has called back w/financial advice.

S10 stayed home from school this am. I gave him a day pass. We all need one once in awhile. He was attached to my hip most of the am, doing homework, reading, etc... Then, asked if I would take him to school at recess time. So, I did, and he appeared fine, then... But, we had more than a few tears this am.

S13 was "fine" when I took him to school. (Is he ever NOT "fine"?)

D18 is a bit of a loaded gun, and I'm just mom enough to let her be. She was totally pissed w/H about S10. She had him last night for a few hours, and dealt w/the tears, etc... So, I she tells me she txt'd H this am, telling him how bad S10 is, and to please txt or call him. It's not their fault you're angry w/Mom. He did reply to her, and txt'd S10 this am, and told him he would call him tonight.

I'm hesitant to allow the communication, because I don't want to make him available to be hurt again. So, I will answer the phone, and talk to him first. And, tell him like it is. Positive, supportive conversation w/our children. No more D talk, and no more yelling and swearing at them. Period.

I think he's just putting a band-aid on S10 by telling him to have a good day, and that he'll call later. We will see.

I would like nothing better for him to show true remorse for his actions towards them, and be able to co-parent w/him. Hope it's not too much of a dream. But, we'll see.