Ouch. Sounds like a fair dose of passive-aggressiveness there hey? (for putting off going to the doctor then laying a guilt trip on your for not going to ER with her). That's a tough personality type to have to work around. I'm glad you didn't get sucked into the pattern, that's important for your boundaries and to protect your sense of self (believe me I've been there). And managed to have a good weekend with your kids - that's great to hear - and great for your kids too.
I'm sorry you're feeling lonely right now. Yes I think GAL will be really important. Do you have some activities you enjoy doing? I made a list of mine when I needed it, so I remembered to schedule time in for them through the week.
Yeah it all felt pretty crappy, luckily i was surrounded by family and friends and when I left to blow off steam they didn't let me get to far, didn't let me be upset and pretty much made me realize that I shouldn't have to deal with it.
She also took my kids up to the mountians with OM2, called me on his phone and then expected me to wait for her to get home around 4 or 5. So I text her telling her that I wouldn't be there hoping that since it was mothers day she would maybe spend more than 3 hours with them on the weekend. No, no I was wrong. She got upset with me because I wasn't there, then dropped my kids off at my parents lying to them telling them that she was going to the hospital. She calls me tells me that she dropped them off and I hear someone in the back ground ask what time they are going to see a movie. I was like WOW really. Anyways I didn't let it bother me, I just let it go and went and picked my kids up, read them a story and sang a song to them.
I do have activities, honestly PG I just need to get over feeling sorry for myself and get motivated. I went through a funk and I'm just seeing that wanting and wanting and wanting is doing me no good. That I have what I need and should just be happy for it. I have goals I just need to do it. I need to write them down.
Anywho, I'm doing good today. Not feeling sorry for myself. Strength...
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
