Also, can you tell us what you may have contributed to the relationship going south?
In retrospect...We knew eachother for too long. We could read each other minds, we knew what the other was thinking and what the other was going to do.
Then, our interests changed, our dreams changed, life has a different meaning when you get older; our interests, dreams and plans weren't congruent. Add to that, we already knew eachother in and out, had already sat there when the other one farted and pretended not to smell it, had argued all there was to argue about everything and nothing, and both had this love for life.
Was she dating? Who knows? Maybe. Probably. Good for her. I didnt notice. I didnt ask. I wasnt waiting at home for her to call.
If she had found someone else, so be it. Who am I to decide what is best for her?
I will use myself as an example here, you can look at these situations as a blessing or a curse. For me, I know myself, my strengths and how to use them; my weakness and what I need to concentrate on. I could have curled up in a ball and died. Or I could have sat around and waited then cureld up in a ball and died. But why? There is still alot to experience and still alot of fun to be had.
Maryelephant said something very interesting to me yesterday about the cancer. She said, this is just something else I need to go through in life; its holding me back but it is not stopping me.
