Spouse Suffering From Depression

[Lucky11too]

Thank's for the mother's day wishes!

Weekend was ok. Friday night was just a low key night with me and S and early to bed (H 'had' to take his cousin out for his b-day). Saturday was actually a really fun day. We went and had breakfast with my parents, sister and BIL, and S at a place called "Breakfast in the Park". Super cute. It's a little cafe in the park that over looks a lake. Then we just played around the park for a few hours. S had the best time! =) That night,I went to a graduation party for my friend who is graduating with her master's this week. We had a lot of fun there - just got to get out and mingle with other young adults (I got a few com'ons, which is always good for an ego boost, even tho I'm not to that stage yet).

And finally, on Sunday for mother's day, we went to church in the morning then I brought S home for his nap and H came over. Since S was still napping, we had some good us time. S took a super long nap, so we got a little mother's day nap in there too. Thanks S. haha. After that H, S, and I went to my MIL to see her. It was really sweet, she had my SIL in law take off work one day and they had taken S out to take pics for me. Super cute. They dressed him up as a sailor! =P It was just really thoughtful! It was funny that great minds think alike b/c I had done the same thing for her with the "old time" pics I had taken and gave to her as well. So that was all fun. H left after that b/c he had to go to work, so then I went to stop by and see my SIL and her family and then home to have dinner with my mom.

So busy day, but over all good. I just had a little trouble last night, with the feeling of loneliness and sadness taking over. It's always really hard when we spend some good time together (especially since I haven't seen him much lately) when it's over and it's back to real life again. Just trying to continue to be strong, but my heart is feeling a little sad still. I want him to choose us and our family but on the other hand I just want it to be over, so I can stop these feelings. It's hard too b/c I still believe a D in inevitable, but I just still have to ride it out to see what happens. It's a little bit of a rollercoaster but it's a ride I have to take to know I've done everything. So hopefully, a few weeks until the surgery and hoping for the start of something good.