W had a track meet two hours away on Sat. morn. She left at 6:00. I took the kids to see Iron Man in the afternoon and they loved it. I liked it too. We then went to eat and play at McDonalds for a long while. We stopped at a park on the way home and flew kites. It was pretty windy so it didn't take much work to get them up and flying. The twins had a blast with them. The two little ones thought they were "cool", but too much work. After watching their brothers for a little while, they hopped on their bikes and scooters and just rode around and played at the playground.
W called around 7:00 and said she was home. I told her we would be there in a while. I asked her how the day went and how the team did. She filled me in and seemed to be in a good mood. We got home later and the kids told her about our day. They were all talking over each other, obviously excited about the day and wanted to tell mom all about it. I gave them all showers and they fell asleep watching TV. W had already went to bed as she had to get up at 3:00 to go to work. A great day with my kids. The only thing missing was mom.
Sun morning was the usual. Went to church, got doughnuts and had a relaxing morning. Our church was selling roses for mother's day so I told the kids to pick some out and they could give them to mom when she got home. Later, W txt me and asked if I had bought my mom a card yet. I said not yet. She said she would pick one up. I told her the kids wanted to make her lunch did she have any suggestions. No, she wasn't hungry. So I make us some lunch, cleaned up and we went outside. W got home a while later and I asked what her plans were for the day. She said her family was going to her Grandma's house. I didn't wait to be invited or excluded, I said I was going to my sister's house. I told the kids 'bye and told W happy mother's day. She said thanks, and off I went.
What a great day!
I came home to finish cutting grass and get some work done around the house. I came home early thinking with no one there, I could get more done and faster. W beat me home. She had only been gone a couple of hours and had about a 45 min drive. Her whole mood had changed. Back to the bitchy alien. I got my work done and when I came in the house, she had the kids showered and they were watching a movie. I showered and came in and sat down. S4 and D6 ran over to sit on dad's lap. W got up, asked why my check was short and I told her I bought gas for the tractor, for my car, etc. "Whatever." Told the kids good-night and off to bed she goes. I put the kids to bed after the movie and went out into my shed. Just to mess around and think.
I am still practicing what and how to say what Coach suggested. I think each day I become more detached. I have quit trying to figure out what sets her off.
I know I can handle it. Yes, still a little scared, but working myself up to doing it. I have to do it right.
