Found out that she has an infection that has spread to her kedneys. Pretty much just makes me see that she isn't taking care of herself at all. It kills me because I want to help her and I want to be there for her, but it will result in nothing. I'll help her she will reap the benefits of me doing so and she'll still move on. I'll just be left feeling like I did all this for nothing.
Talking to my brother yesterday, and he said that he knows that I'm a person that doesn't like to be alone. That I want someone in my life that I can care for, and then said that I need to learn to live without it. Which is what I am doing. It is just hard. The feeling of loneliness is at times overwhelming. I guess this is where I need to GAL. I just need to do things without expecting another to be there.
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
