All - interesting weekend...W appears to be more "approachable" the past few weeks. This weekend we agreed to fill out the legal financial docs together. She appears to still be moving forward with trying to secure her future, which I understand to a certain extent. The issue that we are going to have is how do you support two households with the income that is supporting one. I do wonder if OM is pushing this but I try not to dwell on it.
I remain committed to doing what is "right" and pray and hope that our court system will be fair.
My D continue to be very "attached" to me. I suspect that she is begin to feel the impact of our sitch. I am schedule to attend parenting classes in June and I hope that this will help me learn how to deal with the kids.
Finally, I have begun the process of creating a tighter budget for me, which has forced me to say NO to the kids about pruchases, etc. I am planning on taking the boys to see Dave Matthews at the end of the month and W agree to pay for their ticket (I could not believe it). I also told her that I need to start preparing myself to eventually leave the house. I think my comment was "I can't stay here forever". Her comment was she would never throw me out. I am not sure what she is thinking and I really try not to "figure it out". What will happen will happen. I know that I did everything that I could and have accepted that the M is over. Some days I still feel the anger and pain, which I know understand will take time to get over.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
