Thanks. Today I'm torn - I'm thankful and I'm angry at the same time. Been a while since two feelings have been there at the same time. I think I'm just done and ready to move on and she's in the way. I think it also has to do with yesterday. It was painful to see her drop the kids off and run to be with her new friends on Mother's day. The kids weren't happy about it either. That hurt a bit to watch. That's where my anger comes in. I'm tired of watching this train wreck that used to be so full of love.
Just the same, there are so many great things to be thankful for. My kids for example. They're awesome. We had a great time yesterday evening. I let my daughter talk me into driving us over and getting ice cream. I like her being able to drive. I like being a passenger I think.
Things are great, but I need to move on. I need to sell the house. Sooner rather than later.
I finally broke down and let my in-laws know to back off with the enthusiasm to sell the house. I'm sure I'll get an earful but I'm looking forward to that. I try to remember this is painful for them as well. But I can't keep hearing and seeing their enthusiasm (my mother in law mostly) for selling the house and seeing how that affects my kids. My daughter was griping about it to me over the last few days. I get it. It doesn't help to hear your grandparents urging the sale of the house when it represents the upheaval and destruction of your family as you knew it. Had to say something.
I feel better Weekend was otherwise great! Beach was awesome...Kids were a lot of fun...sun is shining.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
