Thats good that you are looking at yourself and taking responsibility for your part in the M0
I also had conversations with my xh where I apologized for my part of the failed M
I think he heard me, but in my case it didnt bring him home but it did bring me healing and maybe it helped at the time in our seperation to get along better
so trust yourself..the oportinity may come up to let him know you understand what you did in the M but do it with NO expectations and continue on your journey just knowing it is a piece and not the whole..self healing will take a while and hopefully you H will see the work you are now doing and want to be a part of that peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow