Really tired today...I didn't sleep well. First S woke up crying and acting like he was going to get sick. He then went to the bathroom, but didn't sleep well the rest of the night (that was at 10 pm...) I had a lot of vivid dreams. I can remember a few, but others I can't. I just remember they were all different and weird. Now I am just exhausted.
I went off on H last night because I was tired of the stupidness. He never answered one of my questions because I now know that he was with OW yesterday and probably all weekend since her H was out of town (heard that on the news this morning, bad part of him having a job that is told about on the news). He said he wanted to take me out to dinner tonight, but I said no, then he said he wanted to make dinner and mow for me because i deserve to have a day off. I agreed to dinner, but the mowing I do with S and we enjoy it, but right now I am thinking I don't want him at my house. It is no longer his house...it will be a year that he moved out of OW's house and into "his" house on the 28th. I have lived in my house alone for over a year. It looks awesome and that is all because of me, not him so I don't want him there to taint it. I don't know if I am just angry about yesterday or just through with his stupidness, but I don't feel like ever seeing him again. MIL yesterday asked if S and I would do pizza on Friday so we are, and FIL talked about S going over to their house during the summer and I said probably, but never any mention of H. It was all very weird and I fear that if he comes over I am going to start a conversation about R, and I don't feel like talking to him. He is a scumbag and whatever...
Not sure what to do....
Me29 S3 H left 4/1/09 I file 8/2/10 Divorce final 5/17/11 1st http://www.tinyurl.com/25lhu52 2nd http://www.tinyurl.com/2c35ueg 3rd http://www.tinyurl.com/322yk89
