Long time since I've been here, I think I was last here right after New Years. DH and I were actually ML about once a week for a while there...during the months of Feb. and March. (I wonder if he made a New Years resolution or something?)
Anyway, now it seems we're back to square one. In April, both of us had a horrible time w/ pollen allergies. Then, I had both a root canal and a gyno procedure in the same week. Since I was away from work for 4 days and so much work piled up while I was gone, I got bad about getting home from work late again, and he got pissed off about that. And for the finishing touches, last week we went to the funeral of an uncle of his who committed suicide. Today is Mother's Day, and that's usually kind of rough for him since his mother died 6.5 years ago. On top off all that, he's had a stressful week at work and has another stressful week, starting tomorrow.
I was feeling neglected and sad and sorry for myself, and then today, we talked about all the things he's been feeling bad about lately (his uncle, Mother's Day, his work stress, and allergies.) The end result was me feeling like I'd been selfish and childish. So, now, for a couple of reasons, I have to try to back off from him again and not be clingy or needy or pester him.
He still talks about us retiring together, taking overseas trips together, etc. Either he really loves me and really wants to do those things w/ me (i.e., be in a long-term relationship with me) or he deserves an Academy Award. Meanwhile, here I am, once again wondering if I need to just mourn my youth and the end of my sex life, and then learn to accept being an old lady with a boring life who never gets laid. (Although I could do some innocent fun things w/ female friends, like travel with them, since DH never wants to travel.) You know - I have to get back to GAL and doing a 180.
Silly Old Bear, are you still out here somewhere? You were a good friend to me before - you had a lot of good advice. How about SSM or Lost&Confused?
