Thanks everyone. I think it's just something H said (the regret thing). Of course he regrets it - look what it's done to our lives! And I also think it's normal he and OW don't broach the subject of me too much. It's not a romantic subject and it's so disgusting that they carried on while I was pregnant.

Today I feel I could never love him again after what he has done.

Momentarily a bit down as a common friend told me my H is having drinks at a bar this Thursday for his 40th birthday.

I cannot believe we will not be sharing this milestone together. Just months ago (well, nearly 5months now) I was thinkning we could have a party that night and hope the baby doesn't come in the middle of it!

Question: Do I wish him a happy birthday?

He's not a real birthday type of person & he was alwasy very lazy about mine. My b;day was a few months ago. All I got was an sms "Happy Birthday, (wife)".

I don't think I will wish him one.

He may be the father of my child, but he has done the most dispicable thing.