Hope you all had a good weekend and a good Mother's day.
Tomorrow we have the appointment to sign the papers.
I'm at peace with it.
I did give STBXW a chrysanthemum plant today when she dropped off the twins ("mums"! how about that, I just realized), and told her thank you for being the mother of our boys. She smiled and said, we did do a good job, didn't we?
Spoke briefly to my MIL. She used to like me so much, today she couldn't look at me. Weird. Didn't bother me so much. Collateral damage.
Other than that stayed really busy this weekend. Always busy these days.
Oh Romeo - yeah, a hacksaw. "Plan B" isn't always pretty, is it? We know that. But in the end it worked out.
OK; actually wigging out a little. Not a lot. Was kind of thinking of this as just another step in the process. STBXW commented about the significance of today, this morning when I dropped off the boys.
And yeah it is. And now I'm thinking of the waste of it all.
It just comes down to this moment tonight. Where I sign my name and say, I agree to dissolve this marriage.
All this time and mental / emotional acrobatics that I've gone through about why, what if, hurt, trust, justificaition, what I really want, blah blah blah blah. All the talk about custody scenarios, money, the future, the boys. The feelings of loss, of what I did wrong, of how she gave up all that stuff.
Essentially walled off. Capped off. No longer matters.
Because tonight, it's an act. A solid, definitive act. One we're making together I guess, but more than that, one I'm making alone. To be seperate.
Yeah, it's just the capstone to the process that's been going on for months. Another step, momentum pushing this forward, making this a matter of course.
But, I realize I can't let this pass without acknowledging its significance.
Geronimo, you're on the right track buddy. You're a strong guy, you'll survive and thrive. Just get it done.
Peace, strength and freedom my friend!
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Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
Papers are signed and in effect. Only last detail is the judge signing.
Now she's XW.
Got to hear on the way home (yes, I drove the both of us) that she still loves me and that I was everything that she wanted. I rubbed her back as she cried.
Got to hear on the way home (yes, I drove the both of us) that she still loves me and that I was everything that she wanted. I rubbed her back as she cried.
This is a tough moment in your life. Possibly the most difficult so far. I hope that what she says does not make it that more confusing for you.
One thing to hold high is that you gave it your best shot. You did the best you could. But, a person can only be a man on a yoyo string for so long. It does take two dedicated people to make a strong relationship.
Strength and Honor
BTW... Mine wanted another chance a week before the D was final.
