In and of itself, a very nice mothers day. W came over, and teared up at the gift I had the kids make for her. It was touching. She was very moved by it.
Played with the kids in the yard while W fell asleep in the sun on the deck. She seems to be unable to watch me being a great father - almost like she is blocking it out. Never joins in on the fun. It seems to make her sad.
In laws came and it was a nice surprise. We grilled out and made a nice dinner.
Afterwards W thanked me and gave me a hug before leaving. Like one you would give a casual friend. I've had more loving hugs from men I've just met. Although I set up the whole day and made everything just right, she seemed to only want to express appreciation to the kids and the inlaws. Thanking the kids for making the gift and the inlaws for making the trip. She knew I did everything. In better days she would have expressed very heartfelt appreciation. Now she seems to have too much pride to do that.
Found out from my son in the morning that the OM was with her and the kids yesterday at her church. Kind of ruined the mood for the day, but I fought through it and didn't let it affect me.
I wish she would wake up. She knows she should fix things and that that is the right answer. But she is too stubborn to give in to what she knows is right.
All I can do is keep pounding. And try not to give up even though it seems pointless at times.
WAW Using God Me-43 W-40 M-14 S-11 S-9 D-7 EABomb 5/09 Separated 12/09
