WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

So every time I take a strong stand against (or seemingly against) H I feel strong for a bit then start feeling disloyal, sad, uncertain and start slipping into despair...

I can't handle feeling like this right now.. I do not want to feel this way.. Is this how a mom feels with a teen when they take a hard stand but don't think the teen will rise to the occasion? Cuz I don't think H will step up... I'm not sure emotionally if he can.... But I don't know how else to handle the house thing...

I don't know what I'm doing...

I just feel so sad that we got here...