WAW still around, DBing starting to work

[gutwrenching]

How quickly things change...
After 2 days of pulling away/distant...I got a pursued big time. She kisses me, more than a peck and a lot more than that.

W tells me she needs to try to work on M before quitting and going thru with D. Last night she told me that thinking about Mothers Day she realized she was a bad mother and didn't deserve anything. That has motivated her to really try. Also, she tells me that since she told me she had made up her mind and I told her I was letting go, that I was very "acquaintance" like in all dealings with her and she guesses that's how it would have to be...

So a little guilt and dropping the rope...and 48 hours later she is trying like never before.

I have let her know that I was quickly going down the road towards D and getting very comfortable. She said "I know, I'm sorry and we can still go that way if you want." I replied lets just take is slow, lets see where this goes, and lets continue to talk about things.

Yesterday was amazing. more love, affection, touching, relaxed in in probably a couple of years to be completely honest.

Based on some good advice on the alt, I gave her nothing for Mothers Day. That was my plan, her changing her ways one day prior isn't enough yet. I told her that I had nothing but a few kisses for her for Mothers Day. She finished my sentence for me...she said you were already going down the road of not doing anything for Mothers Day weren't you...I said yes I was. She said I understand.

Lastly, she brought up MC. She said we should try MC also. We have talked about that 2 nights in a row. We agree that we should do MC. I am debating bringing up Retrouville as either an alternative or in addition to MC.

Keep your fingers crossed. Thanks for the support and great advice along the way and especially recently. Its early, but wow...what a turn of events.

Coach your post on changing your thinking/feelings was also timely. Helped a lot. We had a big function that night and I detached for me like never before. Had a blast and W was there doing her own things, but she noticed big time and I didn't care. Didn't care what she did, why

I cant help but think that might have been a factor also. I was on, had a blast with the 800 other people there and as one person commented: I've never seen you so animated, it was good to see. I was completely out of the funk of the D talk