It's called a 2x4 and I think you could stand a little tough love right now.
You still have been dancing around the issue of your son. What have you done for him? I haven't seen you post anything about him and his needs.
You also haven't answered the questions about the OW. How do you know she exists aside from the spam he's been getting?
rysmom, I think you need a jolt of reality right about now. Until you can answer those questions, you will alienate everyone who is helping you.
You're depressed. I get that. Hell I was the same way. But sometimes depression makes you start seeing and believing things that may not always be true.
You drift into the two extremes. Either you're overly loving your H or you hate his guts. You don't believe me? Re-read your posts. All I'm doing is addressing the issues that everyone else seems to be dancing around.
Quite honestly, I don't think your T knows the severity of your emotions. You can say I'm being hurtful and cruel or whatever, but I've been on these boards long enough to see when someone needs a wake up call every now and again.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
