THA, I can totally relate to everything being MY fault. That blame game gets really old. : (
Sounds like you are doing pretty well tho. : )
Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010
Yup.. if they would for a second realize the truth of the situation and man up for a change, they would be in a better place.. they just don't get it. you can blame all you want.. but unless you take some responsibility and deal with the problems, they aren't going to disappear...
ugh.
I am Court.. I am at a point of my life where I know I'll be just fine either way..
Hugs to you...
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
Yup.. if they would for a second realize the truth of the situation and man up for a change, they would be in a better place.. they just don't get it. you can blame all you want.. but unless you take some responsibility and deal with the problems, they aren't going to disappear...
ugh.
I am Court.. I am at a point of my life where I know I'll be just fine either way..
Hugs to you...
I agree. I have recieved a ton of TM recently from my WAS. The majority were her blaming me for where we are. Pretty sure I didn't make the decision for her to cheat and leave. I have no intention of taking responsibilty for her choices. And all it does is strengthen my resolve. Clearly, no real remorse yet.
Yup.. if they would for a second realize the truth of the situation and man up for a change, they would be in a better place.. they just don't get it. you can blame all you want.. but unless you take some responsibility and deal with the problems, they aren't going to disappear...
ugh.
I am Court.. I am at a point of my life where I know I'll be just fine either way..
Hugs to you...
I agree. I have recieved a ton of TM recently from my WAS. The majority were her blaming me for where we are. Pretty sure I didn't make the decision for her to cheat and leave. I have no intention of taking responsibilty for her choices. And all it does is strengthen my resolve. Clearly, no real remorse yet.
I don't know if I'll ever see remorse from my H as far as him breaking down and apologizing repeatedly. He is more of a DOer. The only time I saw any was when we R the first real time back in November/December. He broke down and admitted that he couldn't even believe himself that he did it and that he didn't trust himself.
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
Morning THA, wow! I admire how you handled him playing the blame game on you the other night. Nicely done! Just wanted to stop in, too, to say thanks for the dream interpretation the other day - very interesting indeed! Oh! And to say I hope you have a very Happy Mother's Day this weekend!
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
We woke up and I made us 4 a mothers day breakfast.
Kids are too young to know what is it to acknowledge it.
I then took them to the store to walk around and let them each get a little something.
I feel so at the end of my rope right now.
Not sure if it's even worth it anymore.
I am feeling as if one more day I spend trying to get through the day and fight for this marriage is one is one more day I'm robbing myself of happiness.
I'm sure I'm babbling here but I just needed to connect with you all somehow today while I'm feeling like this. It's like you all have the power to give me the strength I need.
I want to feel strong again. I will be okay. I know this. It's all a matter of hoe much more I can take of this. I won't myself to allow him to lose myself.
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
Oh THA. I'm so sorry you're having a hard day... you're not babbling. Let the feelings out. You will be strong again, and what a good mom you are, to make a special breakfast and take them to the store. Hang in there... I'm sending you good thoughts and praying for you too. Just think of what you can give yourself to feel special and cared for today. And know we're all cheering for you. You're a great, great mom with an amazing sense of dedication to be trying so hard to keep your family together in your sitch. Know that we're here to support you no matter what you decide. Just do what your heart tells you is right for you and you'll never go wrong. Keep posting today - I'll check in on you again. And hey, Happy Mother's Day. PG.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
