6 MONTHS IN AND FEELING A WOBBLE........

[lalxx]

Well I have had a fairly torrid week or so with my husband.

Friday 30th April he came by to fix the children their breakfast before taking thme to school. I normally stay well out of his way, however I heard him shouting at our son for having dirty finger nails, he called him disgusting...I came to the top of the stairs and asked if there was a problem and the hounds of hell were unleashed. It resulted in my husband storming angrily out of the house and he called me jst afterwards and was shouting and berating me and telling me the calls were being recorded. I ended up hanging up on him as he was so abusive.

I took the children to school. Had a hideous day and was really upset. When I got home there was an e-mail which was just awful - full or venom and vitriol towards me - accused me of being an infit mother, of sleeping around, of calling him to all of our friends and family, being a bad business woman .....all of it untrue I have to say.

I ignored the first e-mail and the 4 further ones which followed over the weekend. I sent him an e-mail which was calm and polite pointing out that our children were healthy and balanced and hadn't missed a day's school since he left nor had they been ill and his accusation of my poor parenting was wrong. I got a long ramling reply stating his version of our marriage (died years ago, get real because he's going to be divorcing me whether I like it or not). he told me he loved me but all I wanted was servant in our marriage and I was frigid, disrespectful ....you get the picture.

He eventually asked to meet up via e-mail and I said I was happy to do this - as long as it was in a public place, the meeting wasn't recorded and I had an idea of what he wanted to discuss beforehand. I haven't heard from him about meeting up since but he did say that he would allow to cool down so that I could think about responding to his offer of divorcing him for adultery which had been made via solicitor's letter a couple of weeks ago.

He has had the children this weekend but hasn't been around all week. He has been chatty via text and even sent me pictures of our daughter in a sports car?? I tend to ignore his texts unless it is about something urgent involving the chidlren.

It was our children's school Summer Ball last night and I took 2 tables (this is an event we have always supported in such a way). I have had friends to stay with me this weekend and last night was such fun - I boogied the night away. My friends were great and there were a few solo ladies on our tables it was a fun night - I missed not being with my husband though it has to be said.

Today I feel so very, very flat and tired of the whole situation, he seems to be very focussed on getting me out of his life and I continue to GAL. Is how I am feeling normal? He has been gone 7 months now and I try so very hard to be the best version of me that I possibly can but today I feel such a failure and I miss my kids.

Thanks for listening,

lalxx