How do I save my marriage to husband in MLC?

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I have not contacted my H in any way since last Sunday (05-02). When I came to pick up the kids Friday, I looked at him and smiled, but didn't even try to engage him in conversation. I did thank him for taking good care of the boys (as I always do), and walked away with the boys to my vehicle. So I am improving on showing desperate, clingy behavior toward him.

Yesterday (Sat. 05-08), he called me (first time he's done that in weeks) to see how I was doing. We discussed my teen son (not biologically his) and his disrespectful attitude toward me lately. H tried to give me advice on how to handle that, and I thanked him. H gave little hint of love or feelings of remorse toward me, but he was at least nice- progress, I think.


I am still so shocked and devastated by my husband's current behaviors. The PA has been the main focus of my thoughts ever since I found his secret MySpace account last Sunday. ::sigh::
The pain of his betrayal is overwhelming at times! I keep wondering if he means it when he says he LOVES her and she is the love of his life. How can he feel that way when I am the one who was with him for the last 11 years and gave him two beautiful children? ugh These thoughts nag at me a lot. :-(

I am TRYING to take the focus off my H and his craziness, though. I quit checking in on his secret MS page two days ago. I have been hanging out with friends more. I am going to join a gym on Monday and sign up for a few classes there. I am finally able to start actively looking for an apt. or house to rent.