Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

One of H's other sister's called me to wish me a Happy Mother's Day, we talked a bit about OW and H. She reiterated what the other SIL said, that H is confused, OW is a cold B and the family misses me and worries about me but I need to let go and move on, that I deserve better than what H is doing to me. She said she views me as a friend and hopes I know I can call her at any time and she won't say a word to H about our conversations. I cried a bit and explained that I still love him and it's so hard to let go, she said she understood. She said they are making plans to all get together for Fourth of July and she hopes to see me then, that no one has even mentioned OW in making plans but I've come up quite often and while H can leave me, the family won't. She said that she has told H flat out she thinks he is making a mistake, that he belongs with me and that OW got pregnant on purpose, that OW pulled this stunt because she thinks DS is how I was winning him back, and that our bond is deeper than just DS. And I agree, our bond is much more than just our son. She told me that this decision was very hard on H, that he didn't take calling off the reconciliation lightly and she hoped I understood that. I told her that I just pray for him wake up from the fog of confusion and realizes that staying out of guilt is not a good reason to stay, and she said she hoped the same.

So for now I'm just playing the waiting game and trying my hardest to hang on.