Quite honestly I don't think there is OW. I think you're bitter that your H left and come here for the attention. Aside from a few spam mails that he gets, you haven't any evidence of OW. Personally I think you seriously need help for your depression. And I'm talking about the pharmaceutical kind.
Give your H the motorcycle and his guitar. Stop holding his things hostage. Start letting go.
"He said if i dont give him $25,000 motorcycle and guitar he will go buy another one. He has no money saved for sons college but he spends like this."
For God's sake woman. It's his motorcycle give it to him. You tend to thrive on drama and how wronged you were. I haven't seen a single post about your son and how you've helped him. IF he's actually hurt. All we've heard is ME ME ME.
Get off your @$$ and do something positive. No one wants to hear how depressed you are AGAIN! True we ALL get depressed. Read about the people who had to go through terminal illness or being pregnant. They are 10 times in worse shape than you, yet they get the help they need.
As far as I can tell, there's nothing wrong with you, yet you gripe and whine about how pitiful things are. YOU make them pitiful. Do something. Get meds. Something that will help you with a clear head.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
