Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

Today was my birthday, and it was probably the worst birthday I have had, except for the cake from the kids. I did not remind them that it was my birthday. I had planned to let it pass like every other day. I had to work today. W did ask the kids if they knew what day it was. Daughter said it was not Mother's Day. W said it was daddy's birthday. Daughter and so wished me happy birthday, and said they are sorry for having nothing for me. I told them their love is all I need.

Argued with W about a petty issure, but a bigger problem in our marriage related to money and the kids. Also related to her A with the OM. Son fell asleep on the sofa, and then he woke up a little disoriented, and he went pee in the laundry basket. I barely have quarters until payday, and told her I would wash them on the regular day. She said, they will stink. I told her I don't care when all you give me is scraps, and you take most of your pay and put it in another account. I told her I need what little money you give me for laundry, food, and other things here. Also, she said you have a job which I have not received my good paycheck yet. She did rinse them in the shower. They may stink, but we need to make it to payday which I have considered the amount of quarters I need to do laundry. I told her she buys the kids all this stuff and only thinks about herself. Come home early if she is so worried about everything here.

I told her I am sick of this sh!t, and she told me to not let the door hit me on the way out. I told likewise don't let it hit her on the a-s-s out the door. She put the quarters back and did not say anymore, so I told her to listen then.

She is on the phone with her parents now, and she went to the bathroom to text OM. She is one classy woman. Not really!

It felt good to let out the frustration I have with her. She needed to hear it. Probably not the greatest DBing, but I did not really care.

Also I told her I do not do anything for myself, and I do not take money for myself.

I am so upset with her self righteousness all the time.