I think you should go dark. stbxw is, after all, not your mother. Once you get more on solid ground w/ whatever is to come from here, that will be different. But it might help for her to see that this is part of losing the M. It means no more happy b'days, mother's days, etc...
But of course, I am a bitch.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..