I don't think I have that much power over him, it was more of an analogy to exemplify just how demeaning and arrogant my treatment of him has been, all under the guise of *helping and supporting* him.

I've spent years thinking (and saying!), "How could he do this to me when I've given him so much?? boohoohoo"

Tonight is the first time I've realized the full extent of pain that my "help & support" has caused.

It's not so much the drama that's been turned up as much as it is the glaring light of reality illuminating the pity party I've been throwing all these years.

No matter how I spin this, I've got to shoulder just as much blame as he does.

I'm not the sweetest peach in the orchard. That's deserves a little freak out time.

But I agree, I'm glad I don't have that much power over him. Imagine how much damage I could have done with *that*! wink

formerly known as "shelbel"
Me 40, stbxh 40
DSs 9, 7 & 3
M9, T10
Stbxh is a diagnosed bipolar & an addict. The end.