Believe it or not, I am calm. Just incredibly sad. Ugh.

I'm not going to run right over there & tell him, or call him & express my undying love. Nope. Not gonna.

I'm just going to finish reading all my books & work on me for now.

But how will he know that I no longer place 90% of the blame on him? How do I take back all that ugliness? I honestly thought I was doing the best thing for us. I really didn't see it.

Excuse me if I sound hysterical...I'm just really seeing my part in this for the very first time. It's glaring, is all.

formerly known as "shelbel"
Me 40, stbxh 40
DSs 9, 7 & 3
M9, T10
Stbxh is a diagnosed bipolar & an addict. The end.