I love my H and want to make it all work, but he just doesn't seem to see what the problem is. I mean he knows I'm unhappy, and he even cried about how unfair he's been to me, but he won't change.
He doesn't touch me, and it's killing me inside, and he knows it, and he does nothing.
I have been GAL for a while now, several months, not pursuing, though I have had a few slip-ups as far as bringing up R talk, but our lease was up and I wanted to get out soooo bad and go on living my life happily instead of endlessly waiting for him to come to me.
We signed another 6-month lease, even tough I feel tortured, and I told myself I'll be happy by then with or without him.
The thing I'm confused about is that I'm the one trying to keep this all together, working on DBing, and at the same time I'm the one who has one foot out the door. I would leave today if I were financially stable.
I find myself thinking I'd have an affair if the opportunity presented itself, but it's not that I want other people, because I'm really not attracted to anyone but my H. I just want to be touched and loved so bad.
I can't even watch shows where there are love scenes because I get mad and resentful. Why do they get to be happy and have sex and love? why not me? Why am I STUCK here?
But anyway, GAL has been good for me, but it seems to be sending the message that everything is ok and he's doing everything right.
