feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

I got an email saying stbxH wasn't coming until Monday to get his stuff. I thought it was weird so even though I was prepared (with brother and best friend here) I figured ok well he's not coming. We were just here kinda messy...in a robe and in bathing suits from being in the pool.

There is a knock on the door and it's him. I kinda freaked cuz I wasn't expecting but it went ok. He got his things. I think he was surprised I had them all boxed up and his empty closet filled with my things.

He asked to take a small computer and the living room tv (the least expensive one) so I said ok. He dared to ask me for the PS3 which I said, "I don't think the kids would like that." He had the nerve to ask me for a bottle of wine from Mumm (a vineyard in Napa Valley) we went two years ago and bought 4 bottles of really good stuff. I said, "no...I gave you back the Monogamy bottle you gave me." ha!

He looked visibly sad...I felt bad for him. I asked him how he was doing he implied "not good" and shook his head at me. I thought to myself..tell me about it...isn't this what you wanted?

I actually felt bad for the man who has treated me so badly...has abandoned his family and his wife...I had to remind myself...this was HIS choice.

Ok...well...I have my best friend and brother here and so I will try and enjoy myself tonight despite what has happened to me today....my life as I knew it...OVER.

Luv