Just a few days old. They don't have regular contact by email from what I can tell, I suspect it's because they're always on the phone or at one or other of their homes or texting. I doubt there is any doubt in the OM mind about any future for me and the STBXW - he's such a narcissisitc psychopath I don't think he could feel anything. Has the ego to match the cost of the italian shoes. He wouldn't be doubting his own attractive power, obviously as she left me in order to shack up with him, just like the engaged woman before and the married one before that. He must be SO superior. If only I was a grey haired, buck toothed, immoral pansy I'd be a winner too lol!

I haven't contacted the STBXW at all except for the money owed. Now if I was to be going out for coffee with her regularly that might cast some doubts in his mind, but I don't want to do that yet.

I only hope that the STBXW is having some wonderings as well. Wondering what she is missing. Wondering who I was roasting dinner for. Wondering if throwing away all those dreams of children and happy families and growing old together was really worth it for that loser. I'm sure, however, she's being very reassuring about how wonderfully in love they are and that she'll never leave him. Just like she wouldn't leave me, or the man she lived with before me, or the one before that - now all of whom she's cheated on.


Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.