Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

Yes, to lose them to death almost feels preferable to losing them to another person. At least in death you don't have to continually see them and reopen all the wounds each time. Having to see H so often because of DS is making it practically impossible to detach. I know that I need to, I know that I can but it's so freaking hard.

Our anniversary is at the end of the month as well, just another day that has lost its importance to him.